Cinderella

I love Cinderella stories, where the girl is poor but happily content with her life but an arrogant, rich boy comes along and overturns her world. But the boy subtly is also changed by the girl and they fall in love with a happy ever after.

Like many other girls, I've dreamed of getting swept away by prince charming. As overrated as that sounds, there's a reason its overrated. It's more of a common ground for girls than an overrated subject. A lot of us await the day of finding our true love, getting married to him, having kids and living happily ever after just like Cinderella.

Some versions of the Cinderella story have been morphed into a different version. Some Cinderellas, or in a more teenagerish word - gold diggers, search for the rich prince, whose money will make her happy. Other Cinderellas don't need a prince but just a man who will think she is the most beautiful woman that ever existed. And yet there are Cinderellas that find their prince in work and independence.

But I feel like I was already born as a rich Cinderella. I feel like I was born as the Cinderella who is already married to the prince. I have a home, not just a house. I have food to eat every day. I have a mom and dad who toil the entire day to cough up some money for us. I have sisters who never hate me no matter how mad I get or how much I ignore them. I have friends who stay by my side even when I hit them for no reason and I act like a loser. I have a dog who is always happy to see any his family members and has more energy the more his forgetful family doesn't pet him. Of course, Cinderella is probably much more determined and kinder than I am but I am just as lucky as her.

Some people were born as the Cinderella from the story. She lost both her father and mother, the people who truly loved her. She was alone in her home and had only a bed and maybe a desk in her room. She swept the floors as her step family scorned her for no reason and searched desperately for any way to make her life even more miserable. But I don't think Cinderella waited for her prince. She never complained about her family but sang instead. When she had no friends, she befriended the animals outside her window. And because of her kind heart, she had a fairy godmother and life presented her with the opportunity to finally bloom. No one is born into this world alone no matter how dark it seems now.

Cinderella ended her story when she married the prince. Good thing only fairy tales have endings.

At one point in our lives, a lot of us will be just as rich, if not richer, than Disney's classic princess, Cinderella. We have a loving family she never had. We have loving friends she never had. And our own love awaits us, the only thing she ever had.

A love without memories or sincerity is poor.

I am already rich.

Disjointed

My thoughts are still here and there.
Everywhere and no where at the same time.
I'm not making any sense.

I'm so fcking pissed.

I love Pikachu.

Super Girl (Super Junior M) & Dark Blue (Jacks Manniquin) were stuck in my head.

I want to sleep, I want to stay awake.

I think I'm totally rude to Mr. Cowan. Today, he was just talking and I was like in my own world. I thought I was paying attention but there was a point where I completely blanked out. But you know he says some pretty good stuff sometimes. sometimes.

I hope no one thinks my blogs are about them. Sometimes it is, but usually its plainly obvious who it is directed to (at least it's painfully obvious to me). Sometimes I'm just regurgitating what someone says to me or what I think or whatever. I'm just gonna stop.

You're life is a waste.

((confidently and excitedly))
The battle at Bunker Hill saved the American Revolution! .........maybe.

Idiot

I feel really stupid.

What am I doing here? Why am I standing next to her? There's no competition; she's won.

What is she doing here? Why is she standing next to me? Hurry and disappear.

I've just had unconnected, disjointed thoughts lately. One thought here. And another there.

Do I really not care?

I have to give up this and that but I don't want to. Take those things away and I have nothing left. If you take those away, where am I supposed to escape to?

I have too much pride to give up but I don't have strength to keep going. I feel like I'm just standing on one of those moving sidewalks tarps at the airport.

I feel like the more I sleep, the more I'm tired. In mangas, that's how people disappear xO

These days,

Life makes no sense.

P.S.
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY ERIN! :)

Happier Days Ahead

Not feeling it. Been feeling pretty down lately. Don't know why and no it's not my time of month.

1. I had fun yesterday though. Went to K Festival. The festival itself was boring but just going to LA was fun. AHAHA. Soyeon and I were stranded for a couple hours before and we went to go bug Yungsoo to take us. It worked :)

2. I've been having a lot of galbi lately, too. YUMMYYYY

3. Parent's aren't home. They went to Korea for a week. PARTAYY! jkay. I really do wish them a speedy safe trip :)

4. I've taken a liking to this face massager xD I dunno if it works but its fun :D Omg. my face hurts from doing to too much. It hurts like crazy when i let it touch my face again. Its like bruises. ouchie.
5. Lately, I've had the urge to play Pokemon. I've watched like 3 Pokemon movies this weekend (coughillegalycough) I want to be a Pokemon trainer :( But Pokemon games get so boring -_____- I want to be a REAL Pokemon trainer. pooey.

6. I made SCYP the philharmonic orchestra. Unbelievable. I winged the audition and utterly failed. I don't know how I made it but I did. Wow. I'm somehow really lucky. Now I need to to practice TwT Our songs are boring for this concert but oh well. I made it :)

7. Like AllKpop pointed out, September is such a bad month for singers. DBSK fighting with SME over contract issues. 2PM Jaebum's myspace comment gets over-exaggerated. 2PM Hottests are blaming JYP for Jaebum's leave. Super Junior Kangin is charged for an assault. G-Dragon, 2NE1 and Big Bang is blamed for plagiarism.

8. But September can't be sad month. I never want to say this day sucked. Because on that day, at least one person was born. It should be a happy day. I would be so sad if I heard someone say on my birthday, "Damn, today sucks. I hate today. I wish today didn't happen. I wish today didn't exist. When is this day over?" I would be a very sad person.
September happy days I know:
23- Danna
24- sister

9. And happier days ahead.

1:59PM
Waiting for the clock to strike 2:ooPM once again.

This week SUCKED!

but I don't want to say I hate it.
I wasn't crying 24/7 although I did cry.
I have great friends that make me laugh every day so I can't bring myself to hate that day.

Played tennis with Erin and Jeanine today.
Sister bonding! :D
AHAHAH.

This week is over and I hope next week is better.

Still really sad about Jaebum.
I've been spending a lot of time on 2OneDay forums lately.
that place is a great place to vent on the stupid exploded issue.
This is such a small thing, please Jay don't let it get you down :(

Gah, I'm so tired.
This week has been tiring.
PRESS THE SNOOZE BUTTONNNN :D

7-1=0

Troublesome

my life sucks has been better. I still have everything I NEED but there has been so much going on lately. So many things that should be simply SIMPLE but became unexpectedly dramatized. My perspective on people, myself and life has changed more than a bit.

For one thing, Park Jaebum. Poor baby. I really want to tell him he shouldn't give up and go back and do SOMETHING. It might not be my business but I'm scared he might regret this incident for the rest of his life if he doesn't clear it up neatly. Some netizens are RIDICULOUS. I say some because I know some netizens forgive Jaebum and support him but the others are just utterly ridiculous. A suicide PETITION?! I mean REALLY? Cmon. How many actors and actresses have you killed already? Is it not enough? You want to unrighteously and immorally take away yet another life? Is life that insignificant to you? Do you think life is that cheap? If you want him to die so much at least you go do the killing. Why are you trying to put all the responsibility on Jaebum? That comment was four long years ago when he had NO ONE and NOTHING in Korea. He didn't even know the language or culture. He was BRAND new. People change. Well, at least sane people do unlike heartless antis but Jaebum is a sane man who changed from a belligerent to a charismatic and kind-hearted guy. Common fans like us may not know him very well but I can tell a little bit from the variety shows and interviews. More credible is the admiring comments people around him keep leaving him. JYP saw his talents, his teammates look up to him, other celebrities respect him, staff loves him. Jaebum deserves those praising comments. He earned it. I hope he won't give up and do what he wants to do without any regrets, whether it's coming back with 2PM or going back home as Jay Park.

I've had SO many thought's I want to right on here. I guess I've been doing a lot of thinking the past few days but maybe I'll save those for another day. I'm just so frustrated and angry lately about many things. I feel disappointed in myself and I can't seem to find relief. My hair's falling out, too. Great.

Take me away.

Let Your Love Be Strong

One's evil, the other is righteous. These terms have always changed throughout the course of history. Kids who have never seen peace and kids who have never seen war have different values. Those who stand at the top determine what's wrong and what's right. This very place is neutral ground. Whoever wins becomes justice.
- One Piece 556

I have no pity for villains. But family is different. What are you supposed to do then?
- One Piece 556

Lately things have been quite depressing. sigh.
School's not bad. I have my day of laughs every day! AHAHAHA. Being happy's so great :)

But it's so hard to love people who are so...umm...unlovable?
Nobody's perfect. GET THAT IN YOUR HEAD. Stop comparing yourself to me. You're not lower than anyone else but you aren't higher either. What fckin right do you have to dictate and tell someone off so rudely. GROW UP. You're not five years old anymore. Learn from others, don't belittle them. Stop being so arrogant. Do you even know what it means to sacrifice? When's the last time you ever gave up something for someone else? You know what it feels like to be excluded but yet you do it to other people whom you deem "insignificant." Just GROW UP. You don't have to be good at everything. That's what friends are for. You don't always have to be right. Fck. Whenever you are right you say, "See I told you soooo," and whenever you get it wrong you simply say, "Oops." What the hell? Just be humble about it when you get it wrong. Don't belittle other people and squeal, "See I told you soooo." GROW UP. If you want to be INCLUDED than INCLUDE other people, too. Yeah, sure to love others you have to love yourself first but doesn't everyone know understand the golden rule? You want love? Then love others. You don't want to be a loner? Then don't make other people feel like loners. Sometimes YOU have to take the first move and do the right thing FIRST.
Let's all grow up and get past this but I'm gonna need cooperation from you, too. God can handle everything and love all of you but people can't. People have limits (thank God He doesn't). Don't act like the leader, act with the people.

I still have so much to learn.

I'm just going to be the better person.
- Ronnie Park