Idiot

I feel really stupid.

What am I doing here? Why am I standing next to her? There's no competition; she's won.

What is she doing here? Why is she standing next to me? Hurry and disappear.

I've just had unconnected, disjointed thoughts lately. One thought here. And another there.

Do I really not care?

I have to give up this and that but I don't want to. Take those things away and I have nothing left. If you take those away, where am I supposed to escape to?

I have too much pride to give up but I don't have strength to keep going. I feel like I'm just standing on one of those moving sidewalks tarps at the airport.

I feel like the more I sleep, the more I'm tired. In mangas, that's how people disappear xO

These days,

Life makes no sense.

P.S.
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY ERIN! :)